Christmas went by smoothly as did the New Year. The boiler managed to stay free from trouble during the cold spell for which I am grateful as, listening to some of my work colleagues, it would appear that broken boilers reached epidemic proportions.
Just before Christmas, I got together with a lady friend for a couple of dates. These went well and the relationship reached the next stage which is when it all started to go wrong. As soon as things got intimate I started thinking I was was cheating on Jane. No matter how I tried to reason with myself that this was stupid the guilty feelings would not go away. I would make up excuses why I couldn't see her and in the end I had to sit down with her and explain what was wrong. Well, she explained to me what was wrong and I think she is right, I am still very much in love with Jane and am just not ready for such a relationship at this time. She gave me a big hug and said 'just friends it is.' Good friends are special and she is a now a good friend.